January 19, 2026

It’s been 3 days since have gone to school. It’s been pretty uneventful to say the least. I have finally figured out how to manage my schedule, and hopefully, I follow through with it. There are some things I have learnt about myself. There are certain things I have become clear about. Like the one girl that I may have asked out and made a fool of myself, who has a bf. Yeahhh. That too. But it’s all good.

Juggling everything while trying to figure out so much is fun(stressful) but fun. I am back to the gym, and this time I want to cut down 20 pounds while lifting 2x than what I lift now.

ABS.

Maybe I’ll grow ‘em too.

Let’s see. Got a new roommate. He seems like a good person. I think he’s trying to figure things out, too. We play Brawlhalla sometimes. He has a PS5, so other games don’t really vibe between us.

Today though. Jan 18. I figured Shuvanjan also reads books. FINALLY, Someone I can talk to with similar hobbies. I am also trying to learn Onshape. I am doing at least one model every single day, and so far, I have followed through with this. Other things not so much, but as the semester picks up, I will follow through on all the goals I have this sem. I want to journal every single night, but it’s boring, or maybe I am lazy. I don’t know. It’s pretty uneventful. I go to class, then study for some time and come back and sleep. Next day, wake up and go to work. Do work the whole day and then come back and sleep. It’s been like that. And I don’t feel like writing anything.

I came back from the gym and talked to Didi, Dada, Janak Dada, and Satish Dada. Then called back home to my mom and dad. Sailba is still in Kathmandu and said he’ll be back by the 20th. Or my 19th, which is tomorrow. I wanted to go to Walmart and buy some essentials, but I saw no bus on the TransLoc app.

But I am progressing. I feel like I am getting better at certain things. I can finally talk to people and hold conversations. It feels like I can talk with people if they ask or initiate a conversation, but when I have to do it. I just can’t. So far, there have been certain moments where I just stayed quiet when I should have at least said hi. Like this week at Mech Engg Mechanics of Materials class. But I held a conversation in the English comp class, so that’s that. I will get better. I promise. I want to talk to at least 20 new people and 5 permanent friends this sem. Let’s see. Maybe an unachievable goal? idk.

Anyways, have a lot on my plate. Hopefully, I don’t get overwhelmed. I am afraid to ask for help. It’s like I will figure things out is expected of me. idk. idk anymore.

I will figure things out.

I will. Anyways. I will put my diary as what happened during my day instead of this philosophical monologue.